1 2 3 4 . . .


I haven’t been writing in this blog for a few weeks. I have been writing and creating but in another way…for my new business partner that walks around talking about the value of “truth” just about every moment of every day. Her message is invaluable. She talks about how fear, anger, insecurity and lack of self-love prohibit living a life of truth and joy. It is a necessary message for most who remain living in fear in this old outworn way of living that all too many still embrace. I believe we were brought together so that I may help her with her message, her instruction, her coaching and her path in this lifetime. It is rewarding work. I believe in what I am doing.

However, I don’t have a lot of time for my own spiritual progression right now. That is sometimes hard. My spiritual path is new. My intuition is growing by leaps and bounds but I use it little as I turn away and once again embrace the business skills that I honed over decades of business life. Little time, if any, is available for much else during the last weeks and probably the next few weeks. Using my intuition is beautiful. I miss doing that every day all day long. Using my business skills is easy, necessary and not at all spiritually uplifting for me.

But I see a lot of the number 1234 right now and that keeps me going. What is special about that number showing up at exactly this time in life over and over again each day? It’s the knowing that it is a message from something I (and others) call “source” or “spirit”. It is the energy that connects all of us together with everything we dream, breathe, live, see, know and even all that we don’t. I didn’t always believe that way. If you look at some of my earlier blogs you will see that this spiritual way I live was a life time of coming into being. After opening my mind I see so many patterns and rhythms and recognize the synchronicity and unmistakable order to all that is.

How do I mean synchronicity and unmistakable pattern/order? The phone rings at 12:34, a taxi 1234 passes by, I pickup my takeout – receipt $12.34, a new friend lives at 1234 W. Monroe, I sing a song I like and notice for the first time it’s called “1234”, phone numbers appear with 1234 and license plates show up along my path that include 1234…and these are just some examples. 1234 is unmistakably present in my life right now.

Why is it reassuring? Because I believe in synchonicity and when I first noticed the number I googled it. In numerology the sequence/meaning for “1234” is “needing to take steps”. Those that see it often are being guided to realize that they are needing to take a sequence of steps in order to move along a path. Seeing this number at exactly this time is incredibly powerful, helpful…and as mentioned…reassuring.

I like to help people find their connection to spirit/source. I feel it is my life purpose. I think few can do this without living in truth. I have the connection and intuitive ability to help people that are searching for it. So all of the work that my business partner does every day prepares people for the lessons that I would like to teach. I want everyone on this planet to understand that we are love and light. We are all meant to be full of love. I am working on helping my business partner teach 1, 2, 3 and the start of 4 in that journey people are taking in this life they are living. After they learn to live in truth and pursue happiness and joy perhaps 5, 6, 7, 8 and the connection they find to spirit/source swiftly follows. The sense of connection that I feel is miraculously wonderful. I would wish everyone would take the steps to find it.

It’s a beautiful sequence of numbers 1 2 3 4.

Meaning posted on Angel scribes – “Number 1234 can be seen as a number of progression and/or steps along a journey or life path. Angel Number 1234 is often seen as ‘steps’, with subsequent number sequences (eg. 567 … 789 etc.) appearing once the 1234 sequence is acknowledged and recognized, and the ‘steps’ and actions taken by the individual. Know that you have all that you need within to achieve your goals and aspirations … you just have to make the choices to do so, and take the appropriate actions.   Have faith and trust in yourself Angel Number 1234 indicates that you may have to put some hard work and effort towards a new project, venture or important life-change, and these will be of long-term benefit to yourself and your loved ones.  Trust that the work and effort you have put in towards achieving your goals and aspirations will be well worth your while and you will find long-term success and personal fulfillment.”

(click here to watch the song I was singing….1234)

That simple light that comes from complicated darkness is the path we take.


The spectravision of a shrimp

shrimp eyes

A shrimp exists on this planet that has a vision so sophisticated that we do not yet completley understand it… despite decades of study.

I am not writing a shrimp vision blog though I will talk more about that particular subject in this blog post. I am writing this post about a miracle that exists within nature for your discovery and consideration. Why? I have little to contribute to the scientific community. So why do I occasionally blog to convey my thoughts on various scientific discoveries that we can absorb only after much thought and wonder? I have the hope that you too will connect to the magic and wonder of this universe. It is magically uplifting.

Science opens my mind to the miraculous dimensions of physics, nature, the universe and even the complexity of what lies within the minds of mankind.  Science also opens my heart to the dimension of “connection” those of a certain spiritual persuasion call “source”, “energy” or “spirit”. As a science junkie that is also spiritually persuaded….I am routinely amazed at the miracles that are all around us in this universe.  Everyday ordinary miracles there for our seeing if we just but open our eyes.

Science is the study of the inexplicable complexity of all the things we strive to understand in our minds and sometimes our hearts. The more I embrace the wonder of scientific discovery the more connected I become to everything. That discovery of “connection” is the most beautiful journey that I, a true traveler and seeker, have ever taken. The connection that grows now (not in my mind as much as in my heart) is boundless joy, love and light. That connection is there for you too if you allow yourself to search for it. Allow your eye’s to open and see the beauty of all that is and what connections we as the human race need to find our way to understanding.

I’ll give you my example that filled me with wonder today…a little creature known as a mantis shrimp. This little shrimp is very fast, miraculously strong and with a vision that a “non-scientist science junkie” cannot conceive without watching a 4 minute video. I came away from that scientific video with a new understanding of light and the complexity of our ordered universe.  I can try to paraphrase and explain…but the video I attach below is far more effective than any one-dimensional words I would type out on a blog.

What I do hope to point out – the occurrence of such ordered sophistication in nature is a miracle of divine proportions. I hope the video fills you with curiousness and wonder.   What is the light processing that mantis shrimp is doing with these compound eyes?  What would we understand if we could see light in this way?

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is the comprehension of nature’s plan and the untapped potential of humanity.

You may say I’m a dreamer….but I’m not the only one….


I heard the John Lennon song “Imagine” this evening.

The wars and conflicts in this world are mighty. We humans seem bound to continue our race to use all the earths tentative resources and leave nothing for future generations. We seem to think we can continue our old outworn ways of living at any cost but never bear the cost.

Many years later….The words of John Lennon’s song “Imagine” echoed in my heart this evening. He sang us words that were so simple and beautiful yet seemingly so unattainable these many decades later…a song of peace amongst men. He wasn’t talking about one way of government or religion above another. He was singing a poem that dared us to believe that we could unite as one. He was a dreamer. He wasn’t the only one. I’m a dreamer too.

I can try to convince anyone that reads this blog of the truth of his words…but maybe John did it best. No rewording is really necessary.

Imagine there’s no heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today…

Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you’ll join us
And the world will live as one

Let’s hope the world can understand how to live as one….a brotherhood of man….sharing all the world. Peace at last.

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is oneness

To tie the quantum knot…or knot


I was watching the snowflakes outside my window today….

As I watched the little particles float through the wintry day I watched the energy that flows through the universe dancing in front of the window pane.  Beautiful little knots of water frozen in patterns of tiny beauty danced around the parking lot and through the air in a thick white cloud.  I thought of the scientifically expressed energy that binds everything in this universe together in beautiful complicated knots. That snowflake dancing outside the window was such a beautiful expression of the science. 

There is a scientific theory that embraces energetic knots at a sub atomic level. I only know a little of the theory.  I was a corporate treasurer when I used my mind to earn a living…rather than my heart as I do today. Therefore I studied complicated foreign exchange and interest movements….and not the science of the simple elegant energy knot.  What a beautiful ancient theory the scientific physicist has to study when the idea of energy knots is put forth.  Energy does tie itself into knots.  Endlessly, beautifully, over and over again energy knits itself together to create the fabric of the universe, our world, our bodies, our cells, our very DNA, our quarks and our individual vibrations in the entire beautiful knot. 

Modern theory, and modern minds are not to first to find beauty in the concept of an energy knot.  There are beautiful ancient knots featured in remnants of previous thinking cultures.  We find elaborate knots in Tibetan scrolls.  Celtic monks covered pages and pages of their texts with complicated connected knots.  Egyptian artifacts contain patterns of connected knots.  What idea were these ancient scholars really trying to convey?  Was the idea of the simple knot something that we intuited even before modern man created the science to absorb how interconnected all energy is at a quantum level?

I like to think so.

I like to think that we all tie knots in this big ever replicating universe we inhabit.  We tie energy knots with our thoughts, our words and our actions.  Our energy creation is the most basic expression of a knot.  If the tiniest bit within the atom that can be measured (the quark) knots itself into an unbreakable knot (it does) and can be moved by our very expectations statistically (it does)…..what is our energy tying together?  What are you creating? 

I like to think of my heart as the creator for my day now.  Actually, I feel that our hearts are the creators for our worlds.   I keep mine open and send love into the battered world that we live within.  It is a hard time to be human. 

So much of what we have created in this physical world is ego driven and unsustainable. Some of the things we have created are beautiful.    I like living in a warm home in a safe country that guarantees my freedom to dream. I can sit around tying knots of thoughts all day because I am American and that is my guaranteed right.  I have the constitutional right to dream and pursue happiness.   But what should change so that the entire world may be safely living in the way that I do?  How do we create a better world?  What do we do differently?  What do we create by not doing things differently?  How can the beautiful knot of freedom be sustained?  How can the world of humanity be sustainable in what knots we tie together?

On a personal level, the energy knot between two people is also likely to be unsustainable these days.  So many challenges to the human heart and its connective ability to tie energy with others.   Some individuals continue relating on a personal level and creating beautiful energy knots that become moments, that become days that become lives. They are the lucky ones that think with their hearts and minds and create love in their families, their friendships and their lives.

But so much is broken in the ability to create energy knots in our relationships.  Texting, emailing, distracting self prevents so much of the emotional energy knots that have been tied between two people in any personal relationship through the ages.  We breakup without even speaking in the same physical space.  It is now unacceptably acceptable to breakup via text, facebook, email.  It is truly sad if we consider that for just a moment.  It is acceptable to give no energy at all beyond the moment we text an ending from afar with simple electronic words conveying a remote energy that we feel is sufficient to untie a knot.  How can a knot that was so easy to untie be meaningful?  It isn’t.  It’s painless because it was worthless. Nothing was created and nothing was lost.  That broken relationship was merely a distraction on the way to understanding the need to tie more meaningful knots.

Though the times are challenging for heart knotters….I am hopeful.  We all understand the difference in something that moves us and something that leaves us feeling empty.  We all instinctively turn to the sun.  We all instinctively turn to love.  We will get it right as time goes on.  Energy knotting is beautiful when it is meaningful. 

What knots are you tying today?  Are they knots that were worth tying with your energy?  Are they sustainable?  Do they move you and the people that surround you to the greatest highest good of a situation? 

Watch the snowflakes bouncing around your window for a bit.  Those thoughts you create from your heart are just as beautiful and just as meaningful.  A snowflake becomes a drift which becomes a pile which melts and becomes a torrent.  Tie your thoughts meaningfully and as the heart will and you will create beauty.

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is the energy we tie our thoughts with and that energy is love.


Making sense of the dark

dark makes sense

Have you ever had a moment when you felt that nothing made sense?  A moment where all your efforts in some area of your life (or perhaps several area’s) were for naught?  Perhaps you wondered why terrible things were happening to you.  Perhaps these terrible things seemed to make no sense.  You are a good person right?  So why did things happen to you that were not fair?  Have you had that moment?

I have had that moment.  I have had that moment more than once.  Most recently I had that moment in the spring of 2013 when many area’s of my life were just not working. I had been pretending but the longer I pretended the more the universe assisted me in making my pretense unbearable.  My love life had been a joke as I had been with a man that was not as he committed to be in our life together.  My career was in shambles as I had lost my drive and was mired in confusion about what outcomes I even sought.  My son was graduating high school and needed serious parenting yet I felt so lost each moment. How could I shine a light for him when I couldn’t even seem to shine for myself? I was barely able to put one foot in front of the other.  Every moment had a weight and a stress as I looked at my life with honest contemplation.  I could see a 2 year pattern of bad decisions made for reasons of insecurity, ego and human frailties that I didn’t want to believe that I had.  But the evidence was overwhelming in a terrible moment of clarity…..  One bad decision after another all stacked up into a result of awfulness that could no longer be ignored.

Please understand…..I’m not a stupid, lazy or thoughtless person. I have had entire decades of clarity and success.  But yet….there I was with so many dark things in my moments that little light shone into any given day.  I would open my eyes in the morning and mostly wish I didn’t have to get up to face all the things that needed to be dealt with.  Some days I would barely shuffle through getting dressed and had no possibility of my former level of accomplishment.  The pressure of things undone continued to build.  Everything felt dark and confusing.  Decisions that had seemed positive and energy spent in ways that had promised love, success and security….now seemed obvious mistakes. 

But if you are strong (as most of us are) you don’t stay down for the count.  You finally accept you fell down and fell hard.  After that acceptance you start thinking about why you fell, what you injured, how you fix it and how you get back up and moving forward again.

As time went on I moved away from my relationship into freedom.  Light began to trickle in.  I began to parent my son through some difficult decisions with the clarity the situation required. More clarity and light started to shine in each day.  I began to sell my business and settle my career situation. Finally joy and peace began to build in each day again.

 It is now January of 2014 and I am still making changes. I am facing the remnants of that dark time and understanding it’s lessons. My days are easier. I am no longer denying that poor decisions were poor. I lost the weight of pretending things were just going to work out.  It is not easier simply because of the work that went into moving forward and having already taken steps at this date.  It is easier because I am in the light of my truth again. 

I wake up holding myself and no one else responsible for how my day yields a harvest.  Once again I am accountable for the peace, joy, love and light that I create in each moment of each day.  I send gratitude to the universe for all the things that hurt me in 2011, 2012 into 2013.  Each of the dark things that hurt me also helped me learn a lesson and I am grateful.

It is darkness to find that friends are not always true.  Lovers are not always true.  Your own decisions are not always true.  What happens when things are really hard when most things have always been easy? What happens when you make fear based decisions rather than brave decisions? That dark moment of understanding of mistakes is when a hard working “lucky” person learns what is important.  That’s when the dark times start to make some sense. 

If we never find out what it feels like to be disappointed, hurt, given up, betrayed, lost or helpless….how can we have sympathy and compassion for those that are experiencing that state of being?  We simply can’t.  The darkest times of loss and betrayal or pain are the times that light the way to understanding of the human condition. If you haven’t been bound in a cage you don’t understand freedom. If you haven’t been ill you don’t know the value of healing.  If you haven’t been lost you don’t understand the security of knowing your way.  If you haven’t been completely knocked down with pain so intense you can barely move then you don’t know the freedom of running freely with joy.  All the darkest moments bring these lessons.  We may not enjoy them…we may not welcome them…but we do learn from them.

Grace comes only from our darker moments.  Compassion accompanies the person that understands dark times.   Appreciation of light is easiest as we leave darkness.  Clarity is understood when light shines through the confusion of darkness. 

If you are in a dark patch…struggling for light….push through.  Push through to the light and joy with all your being.  When you find your way back to the light celebrate your joy and freedom.  But don’t forget to look back for the lesson.  The dark teaches us to confront our fears, our ego and our losses. It teaches us to be kind.  It teaches us the value of love.  The dark makes sense in this complicated and beautiful universe we live in….though we will never enjoy it we can learn to be grateful for the lessons and the patterns of darkness that run though our lives.

The simple light that comes from the complicated darkness brings clarity, compassion, gratitude and grace.



Lets talk about quarks….



Did you know that the smallest sub bits of energy are called quarks?  Did you know that the simple act of measuring quarks and expecting a result in predictive movement influences the quarks to behave as expected? Think about that for just a moment.  The very act of expecting a result causes the smallest particles known – the basic fabric of all that is in the universe to actually behave as expected statistically.  A thought and expectation influences matter. 

Further realize that those same quarks vibrate and dance to tones.  These complicated little quarks come in pairs that are given names “up quark, down quark, charm quark, strange quark, top quark and bottom quark. They create patters from randomly generated tones.

 Imagine that all those little quarks in your body are expecting, attracting and cooperating with your intent.  Imagine that all the quarks in the entire universe are expecting, attracting and cooperating with your intent.  In fact quarks are cooperating with your intent.  You are the creator of your reality and as your quarks dance along to the tune you are producing and vibrating other quarks fall in line. 

Watch your thoughts, have clear intentions and allow the universe to bring you your hopes and dreams. You have more power in each day than you may realize.  You create more than you realize.  Are you creating light and love?  What are you choosing to allow your quarks to manifest in your life and in the lives of others? 

For more on quarks – some complicated quark science made simple –  


You can also read more about the lovely science of quarks in Brian Greene’s “The elegant universe”. 

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness of this universe is love.  Allow your quarks to dance with love and the light of your truth daily.