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I haven’t been writing in this blog for a few weeks. I have been writing and creating but in another way…for my new business partner that walks around talking about the value of “truth” just about every moment of every day. Her message is invaluable. She talks about how fear, anger, insecurity and lack of self-love prohibit living a life of truth and joy. It is a necessary message for most who remain living in fear in this old outworn way of living that all too many still embrace. I believe we were brought together so that I may help her with her message, her instruction, her coaching and her path in this lifetime. It is rewarding work. I believe in what I am doing.

However, I don’t have a lot of time for my own spiritual progression right now. That is sometimes hard. My spiritual path is new. My intuition is growing by leaps and bounds but I use it little as I turn away and once again embrace the business skills that I honed over decades of business life. Little time, if any, is available for much else during the last weeks and probably the next few weeks. Using my intuition is beautiful. I miss doing that every day all day long. Using my business skills is easy, necessary and not at all spiritually uplifting for me.

But I see a lot of the number 1234 right now and that keeps me going. What is special about that number showing up at exactly this time in life over and over again each day? It’s the knowing that it is a message from something I (and others) call “source” or “spirit”. It is the energy that connects all of us together with everything we dream, breathe, live, see, know and even all that we don’t. I didn’t always believe that way. If you look at some of my earlier blogs you will see that this spiritual way I live was a life time of coming into being. After opening my mind I see so many patterns and rhythms and recognize the synchronicity and unmistakable order to all that is.

How do I mean synchronicity and unmistakable pattern/order? The phone rings at 12:34, a taxi 1234 passes by, I pickup my takeout – receipt $12.34, a new friend lives at 1234 W. Monroe, I sing a song I like and notice for the first time it’s called “1234”, phone numbers appear with 1234 and license plates show up along my path that include 1234…and these are just some examples. 1234 is unmistakably present in my life right now.

Why is it reassuring? Because I believe in synchonicity and when I first noticed the number I googled it. In numerology the sequence/meaning for “1234” is “needing to take steps”. Those that see it often are being guided to realize that they are needing to take a sequence of steps in order to move along a path. Seeing this number at exactly this time is incredibly powerful, helpful…and as mentioned…reassuring.

I like to help people find their connection to spirit/source. I feel it is my life purpose. I think few can do this without living in truth. I have the connection and intuitive ability to help people that are searching for it. So all of the work that my business partner does every day prepares people for the lessons that I would like to teach. I want everyone on this planet to understand that we are love and light. We are all meant to be full of love. I am working on helping my business partner teach 1, 2, 3 and the start of 4 in that journey people are taking in this life they are living. After they learn to live in truth and pursue happiness and joy perhaps 5, 6, 7, 8 and the connection they find to spirit/source swiftly follows. The sense of connection that I feel is miraculously wonderful. I would wish everyone would take the steps to find it.

It’s a beautiful sequence of numbers 1 2 3 4.

Meaning posted on Angel scribes – “Number 1234 can be seen as a number of progression and/or steps along a journey or life path. Angel Number 1234 is often seen as ‘steps’, with subsequent number sequences (eg. 567 … 789 etc.) appearing once the 1234 sequence is acknowledged and recognized, and the ‘steps’ and actions taken by the individual. Know that you have all that you need within to achieve your goals and aspirations … you just have to make the choices to do so, and take the appropriate actions.   Have faith and trust in yourself Angel Number 1234 indicates that you may have to put some hard work and effort towards a new project, venture or important life-change, and these will be of long-term benefit to yourself and your loved ones.  Trust that the work and effort you have put in towards achieving your goals and aspirations will be well worth your while and you will find long-term success and personal fulfillment.”

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(click here to watch the song I was singing….1234)

That simple light that comes from complicated darkness is the path we take.

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The spectravision of a shrimp

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A shrimp exists on this planet that has a vision so sophisticated that we do not yet completley understand it… despite decades of study.

I am not writing a shrimp vision blog though I will talk more about that particular subject in this blog post. I am writing this post about a miracle that exists within nature for your discovery and consideration. Why? I have little to contribute to the scientific community. So why do I occasionally blog to convey my thoughts on various scientific discoveries that we can absorb only after much thought and wonder? I have the hope that you too will connect to the magic and wonder of this universe. It is magically uplifting.

Science opens my mind to the miraculous dimensions of physics, nature, the universe and even the complexity of what lies within the minds of mankind.  Science also opens my heart to the dimension of “connection” those of a certain spiritual persuasion call “source”, “energy” or “spirit”. As a science junkie that is also spiritually persuaded….I am routinely amazed at the miracles that are all around us in this universe.  Everyday ordinary miracles there for our seeing if we just but open our eyes.

Science is the study of the inexplicable complexity of all the things we strive to understand in our minds and sometimes our hearts. The more I embrace the wonder of scientific discovery the more connected I become to everything. That discovery of “connection” is the most beautiful journey that I, a true traveler and seeker, have ever taken. The connection that grows now (not in my mind as much as in my heart) is boundless joy, love and light. That connection is there for you too if you allow yourself to search for it. Allow your eye’s to open and see the beauty of all that is and what connections we as the human race need to find our way to understanding.

I’ll give you my example that filled me with wonder today…a little creature known as a mantis shrimp. This little shrimp is very fast, miraculously strong and with a vision that a “non-scientist science junkie” cannot conceive without watching a 4 minute video. I came away from that scientific video with a new understanding of light and the complexity of our ordered universe.  I can try to paraphrase and explain…but the video I attach below is far more effective than any one-dimensional words I would type out on a blog.

What I do hope to point out – the occurrence of such ordered sophistication in nature is a miracle of divine proportions. I hope the video fills you with curiousness and wonder.   What is the light processing that mantis shrimp is doing with these compound eyes?  What would we understand if we could see light in this way?

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is the comprehension of nature’s plan and the untapped potential of humanity.

The illuminated mind…..

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“The illuminated mind is beyond all sorrow”. Or Is it? That is indeed a beautiful quote that is frequently bantered around within the new age spiritual movement. Let’s think about that quote. Is any mind beyond all sorrow every moment of every day of every year of our life on this planet? Probably not. But our minds are capable of objectively resetting after loss, wounds or disappointment.

What is an objective reset? I think it starts with understanding the benefit and wonder of joy and love. We should understand that joy and love are felt in your heart but your mind interferes at times. It starts with further understanding that joy and love can be maintained even after a loss or wound. If you experience love and joy within yourself you also process that love is a flow of energy. An energy of joy and love is renewable by having our mind take responsibility for our choices, our mistakes and living our truth as well as the further responsibility to heal ourselves after experiencing loss. The joy and love that comes from allowing mind to follow heart into love and joy allows a state of somewhat perpetual illumination as we objectively reset after loss or pain.

Perhaps that explanation is not necessary for some that may find their way to this blog post…but that simple realization was an epiphany to me. I stumbled into having illumination with that realization. I have learned to reset my mind objectively. I have learned this via paying attention to my heart and helping my mind do the same. I feel brilliantly lucky. I like to share my path to this lucky state of heart and mind illumination – in the hopes that it may be helpful to those that can make the choice to live with joy and love.

My accidental state of illumination came along after I experienced a very dark period. In truth I didn’t see the dark period coming though it is obvious now with my big enlightened mind and heart. I was theoretically entering a wonderful period. I was slender, attractive, successful, cultured, surrounded by “friends”, just dating a man that quickly wanted to offer me the world…it all sounds so wonderful right? How was it the darkest period I was entering?

I was completely unconnected to anything beyond ego, old wounds left unhealed and fear. I seemed happy to others. At times I felt momentarily happy. But moments of happiness were fleeting as I made choice after choice to satisfy the ego that was satisfying old wounds left unhealed that created fear. The harder I worked at resolving my failures by protecting my wounds the more hopeless and dark it felt. The poor choices of ego created a very empty life indeed….giving myself away for little, hiding old wounds and living with fear simply does not allow for love and joy.

It is important to say that I do not blame anyone but myself and I forgave even myself along the way to illumination. (This is a completely necessary task for illumination) If you are walking around with a lifetime of unhealed wounds….you probably will make some mistakes. Life wounds all of us at times…we all have healing to do periodically. I was overdue for the healing. My choices were finally so poor that the healing could not help but be following the darkest moments from that time of sadness. The darkest hour can sometimes be the most important hour if we are willing to embrace change.

I embraced illuminating change.

I left the career after realizing that it all just felt empty and pointless. I left the relationship with an incapable man after one unspeakable fight too many…angry and hurt. I left several empty friendships that took and gave little beyond my ability to say I had “friends”. I took a hiatus from dating and worked at clearing old wounds with understanding of lessons, gratitude for the lessons and released so much pain. I started having such a sense of peace and well being that was swiftly followed by understanding of my connectedness to truth and my heart. This connectedness spread to a greater understanding of self-love’s and unconditional love’s role. In truth “science” repeatedly shows the connectedness of all to everything. My mind was faster to grasp that connection than my heart. But after grasping the concept of universal connection I began to feel a greater sense of love that was beyond myself in my heart. Feeling unconditional universal love was swiftly followed by illumination and the understanding of objective reset that is necessary for maintaining joy and love.

The joy and love I try to maintain is not just for me…it’s for the world that I touch and live within too. If I am connected to all and all is connected to me…why would I hurt anyone with my wounds or pain? Why would I not want everything that is to experience my love and joy? Just imagine what illuminated minds could do for the state of mankind today. What would our world become? It would not be war, it would not be sorrow and it would not be grief. It would become love.

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is love.

To tie the quantum knot…or knot

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I was watching the snowflakes outside my window today….

As I watched the little particles float through the wintry day I watched the energy that flows through the universe dancing in front of the window pane.  Beautiful little knots of water frozen in patterns of tiny beauty danced around the parking lot and through the air in a thick white cloud.  I thought of the scientifically expressed energy that binds everything in this universe together in beautiful complicated knots. That snowflake dancing outside the window was such a beautiful expression of the science. 

There is a scientific theory that embraces energetic knots at a sub atomic level. I only know a little of the theory.  I was a corporate treasurer when I used my mind to earn a living…rather than my heart as I do today. Therefore I studied complicated foreign exchange and interest movements….and not the science of the simple elegant energy knot.  What a beautiful ancient theory the scientific physicist has to study when the idea of energy knots is put forth.  Energy does tie itself into knots.  Endlessly, beautifully, over and over again energy knits itself together to create the fabric of the universe, our world, our bodies, our cells, our very DNA, our quarks and our individual vibrations in the entire beautiful knot. 

Modern theory, and modern minds are not to first to find beauty in the concept of an energy knot.  There are beautiful ancient knots featured in remnants of previous thinking cultures.  We find elaborate knots in Tibetan scrolls.  Celtic monks covered pages and pages of their texts with complicated connected knots.  Egyptian artifacts contain patterns of connected knots.  What idea were these ancient scholars really trying to convey?  Was the idea of the simple knot something that we intuited even before modern man created the science to absorb how interconnected all energy is at a quantum level?

I like to think so.

I like to think that we all tie knots in this big ever replicating universe we inhabit.  We tie energy knots with our thoughts, our words and our actions.  Our energy creation is the most basic expression of a knot.  If the tiniest bit within the atom that can be measured (the quark) knots itself into an unbreakable knot (it does) and can be moved by our very expectations statistically (it does)…..what is our energy tying together?  What are you creating? 

I like to think of my heart as the creator for my day now.  Actually, I feel that our hearts are the creators for our worlds.   I keep mine open and send love into the battered world that we live within.  It is a hard time to be human. 

So much of what we have created in this physical world is ego driven and unsustainable. Some of the things we have created are beautiful.    I like living in a warm home in a safe country that guarantees my freedom to dream. I can sit around tying knots of thoughts all day because I am American and that is my guaranteed right.  I have the constitutional right to dream and pursue happiness.   But what should change so that the entire world may be safely living in the way that I do?  How do we create a better world?  What do we do differently?  What do we create by not doing things differently?  How can the beautiful knot of freedom be sustained?  How can the world of humanity be sustainable in what knots we tie together?

On a personal level, the energy knot between two people is also likely to be unsustainable these days.  So many challenges to the human heart and its connective ability to tie energy with others.   Some individuals continue relating on a personal level and creating beautiful energy knots that become moments, that become days that become lives. They are the lucky ones that think with their hearts and minds and create love in their families, their friendships and their lives.

But so much is broken in the ability to create energy knots in our relationships.  Texting, emailing, distracting self prevents so much of the emotional energy knots that have been tied between two people in any personal relationship through the ages.  We breakup without even speaking in the same physical space.  It is now unacceptably acceptable to breakup via text, facebook, email.  It is truly sad if we consider that for just a moment.  It is acceptable to give no energy at all beyond the moment we text an ending from afar with simple electronic words conveying a remote energy that we feel is sufficient to untie a knot.  How can a knot that was so easy to untie be meaningful?  It isn’t.  It’s painless because it was worthless. Nothing was created and nothing was lost.  That broken relationship was merely a distraction on the way to understanding the need to tie more meaningful knots.

Though the times are challenging for heart knotters….I am hopeful.  We all understand the difference in something that moves us and something that leaves us feeling empty.  We all instinctively turn to the sun.  We all instinctively turn to love.  We will get it right as time goes on.  Energy knotting is beautiful when it is meaningful. 

What knots are you tying today?  Are they knots that were worth tying with your energy?  Are they sustainable?  Do they move you and the people that surround you to the greatest highest good of a situation? 

Watch the snowflakes bouncing around your window for a bit.  Those thoughts you create from your heart are just as beautiful and just as meaningful.  A snowflake becomes a drift which becomes a pile which melts and becomes a torrent.  Tie your thoughts meaningfully and as the heart will and you will create beauty.

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is the energy we tie our thoughts with and that energy is love.

 

The need for light

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My way into the light was not easy. It came after many years of globetrotting, achieving, failing, rebuilding, illness, heartbreak, kind gestures, kinship, more heartbreak, success and exhaustion.

I like to say that I am a lifelong student. That is truth and I also like to say I am a truth seeker. But what I chose to learn was not always the greatest highest good for myself. I was sometimes an excellent student in activities that did not move me into joy but rather fed my ego or comforted insecurities. I rushed from experience to experience from the time I was a baby. I was eager to know many things. I did not question what gave my life balance, joy, clarity and purpose for most of my adult life. Work success, beauty, validation of worth and knowledge all made me feel secure. Therefore that was the way I spent my energy with the thought that as those successes were achieved I would be happy. I was not happy. Some lessons were learned the harder way and at the expense of much time and energy.

Some lessons are not learned until the same mistakes are made often enough that an unmistakable pattern emerges. I made some very simple mistakes over and over as I mastered other complicated things easily. I put my energy into relationships without realizing that unless I loved myself just as I was and as I wanted to be I would never be finding completion in relationships. I was very thin, I was very attractive yet that brought no happiness either beyond moments of ego gratification. I worked hard and achieved much career success. Ironically the highest levels of success brought the greatest feelings of personal emptiness.

Over the years I read books on religion, I lived in many countries with differing ways of spiritual expression and beliefs. So many contradictions resulted in no spiritual belief beyond science at one point. I was empty but did not understand that as I filled my life with other non-spiritual experiences. But as patterns emerged, signs occurred, synchronicity took over and I started my spiritual path on the back of some hard mistakes.

I was led to understanding that light, darkness and the shadows between were all energies, emotions, or ways of being. The concepts of yin and yang, source and antimatter, the light and dark, God and Satan, Angel and Devil all have similarity if we look at these various spiritual ways of thinking. We instinctively identify good emotion with light and difficult emotion with dark. That is too simple for real life. Truth is that our lives will never be completely happy, joyous, carefree and light. Neither will our lives be completely awful with no hope of redemption from moments of sadness, loss, destruction, pain and darkness. The balance is found in our choice for the greatest highest good. As we form our thoughts so form our energies and so manifests our reality. With conscious creation of greatest highest good we can limit our difficult time and move into light more fully. Light is always to be found and darkness is necessary for growth so we balance the two as we reach enlightenment. More ancient civilizations than ours perhaps understood this better than we have yet managed. We are likely the ancestors of a series of races that faced near extinction if we accept some of the more recent architectural research and theories that are busy explaining some of the scientific disparities in old ways of thinking. Perhaps this current manifestation of human kind will be around long enough to understand intuition, spirit, connectedness of varying physics and the greater pattern of our universe. We have little hints to go on at this time. As Einstein would say “We can choose to believe nothing is a miracle or we can choose to believe that everything is a miracle.” We are still learning basic things about how we as humans manifest, energy, power and dimension. We have to make sense of things for ourselves in this world where very complicated things are not yet understood.

No matter how important this quest might seem…we do not consider such broad yet basic thoughts of being, energy, manifestation of our energies regularly. We are asleep. It is understandable that we are asleep. We come into this world supported by our parents that teach us the truths of their limited beliefs. As young adults our friends and business acquaintances show us their truths. We journey through our lives thinking of and acquiring the things we found important. Career success, relationships, children, beauty, bank account balance, possessions, certain friendships are all expressions of our needs to feel secure and valued. These “things” have little to do with our purpose and nothing to do with the understanding of light and dark, energy and emotional manifestation. Nevertheless, the things we find important in our early years are the things that made us feel most secure and comforted around our parents modeling and fears. We may even hold onto those habits of security and comfort forever. Some will blame others for their unhappiness rather than taking the time to understand what their purpose was to be and rebuilding an unhappy life into a happy life. Others will never feel the need to seek a greater understanding and simply justify their existence as it is without ever knowing more.

We all know someone that chases business success to the exclusion of all life’s other pleasures. Likely we have met a beautiful person that spends all of their energy, time and attention on their own physical appearance. We may meet people that journey into their art and creation of their art and find value in little else. Others take on bitter relationship battles and ignore the quality of their life as they give all their energy to pointless and resentful battles that occur when unsustainable relationships are not changed for the greatest highest good of all. As long as a person is finding some meaning, validation, comfort, satisfaction and security in their path there is little chance they will dig deeper into changing spiritually for joy, love and more fulfilling contentment.

I will never say that any way of being is “wrong”. I judge no one for toiling away in darkness with little thought of their most important purpose or their very spirituality. Some will never question their path and activities and I respect their journey nevertheless. My purpose for writing this blog is not to say “right versus wrong”. However, I have never been as happy, balanced, sure and available to my life as I am now.

I was completely dark and only sure of one thing at the lowest point of my life. I needed change. I needed out of a very poor relationship choice, the removal of certain people from my life, the downsizing of my career path, a new way of physical expression and nutrition, and a fundamental change in my parenting path. It took me a solid year plus to rebuild from that low point. I spent all my time weeding out poor relationships, dark people, dark emotions that had become habitual, low energy beings, embracing balancing activities, practicing gratitude, finding truth, inner reflection and opening my mind. I did little else but change during that year. I gave myself over to the need for it. As I started to embrace these changes I was different from one week to another as I was from decade to decade in the previous years of my life. I absorbed little lessons that led to other lessons that led to greater ways of understanding.

I am grateful for the darkness that I experienced and the people that I selected who sometimes hurt me deeply. It led me to the time of changing. I am wondrous as I look at life ahead and see years filled with joy, laughter and love as I start into this new way of being and living. I am connected to source easily at this time. I can see the greater order and pattern of the universe and have a much deeper knowing of greatest highest good. I am still learning. It will take work to achieve momentary grace in the light from time to time. That is part of the path of a human being. Struggle, understanding and lessons are to be mastered in this experience we select for ourselves. Momentary grace is a state that we achieve just as that.

I write this blog to share my stories and experiences and to understand yours. We all have something to teach each other.

The simple light that comes from complicated darkness is love and light. This is my truth to teach.